For the longest time staying home and grounding myself with redundancy of everyday mundane task. washing the dishes, doing the laundry, cooking and cleaning . thinking to myself ” Oh God, when will all this everyday ritual ends ” .
A friend came to visit with a sunny countenance at my doorstep. You know what it means when a friend suddenly appears at your door teary eyed? Can’t help it, pouring each other’s sleeve and an idea appears in our foolish head.
Getting ourselves ready to march and hoard the streets with our eyes marveling at the prices of goods that we can’t afford to buy , just wishy washy at the prices .Why suddenly come to a high increase, hmm….
Quite a good change of environment suddenly, I remember that I’ve been enclosed in the house for a very long time , that seeing beautiful scenery is a therapy . I feel the tension leaves my body forgetting that I’ve been to hard on myself lately, following those self imposing rule of dignified foolish pride of isolation to a degree of discriminating myself from the new trends and fashion of everyday living.
We come across a street , seeing a fat older woman , looking at us with a questioning eyes. She happens to be a medium, a close acquaintance of my friend. Sitting there , talking and laughing at those ancient antics we conjured in our heads . Suddenly, she looks at me intently, closing her eyes as if , She’s looking at a wonderful picture at the back of her mind but wondering what it was.
Grabbing my hands which, I offered reluctantly to her , looking at the imprints tattooed at my palms. Where I noticed as I aged there were lines there that wasn’t there before.
She said , why don’t you go and work overseas? you have a lucky streak there. I was thinking hard. Yes, battling between working at home or working overseas . A question that , I want some answers. I need a new environment and learn a new trade , knowing that , I love serving people and giving a piece of me is my sweet piece of heaven.
Counting on the pros and cons , Yes, I made a decision but it’s very hard to decide something that will change your life forever.
Questions of dual priorities between yourself and family ,they both weight heavily and I sigh wearily . Decisions indeed are mind blowing . I still have a headache. Working home made lots of complications that can drag my professionalism , thus bringing me downhill to the road of doubts and uncertainty.