At 39 going to forty by December as I look at myself in the mirror I noticed the signs of time is clear on my face , the aged spots ,the crows feet and a few lines that creased my once supple young skin knowing that its inevitable though.But what really makes me wonder is not the older vision of me as i look within myself and ask myself some of life’s questions
what have I done to make my life worthwhile ? what did i do i life to make myself a person of integrity , dignity and honor.Then to my dismay i noticed that i have done nothing special or spectacular all my life .I realize have lived in fear and hiding within my insignificant self.
The jaded,scarred woman in the mirror finally learned her life’s lesson the hard way knowing she can’t go back to the way she have gone through . She have change ,she have age and gain maturity and become wiser . I learned that it’s not good being too dependent on someone when that happens they will invade your boundaries and consume your sanity so now ….I made a pact with myself to break the habit of negativity into positive values ,to love but love myself more ,to give but never too much ,being kind but never too nice because if I do i will be the one who will hurt the most if my act of kindness is not appreciated.
I want to live each moment with zeal and enthusiasm to do and build my dreams and try to explore my limits by traversing to diverse challenges in life..I want to be happy and live each moment with hope ,aspirations and motivations no matter even, I may fail many times knowing that there’s no harm in trying i will try anyway .Making a small steps forward that will lead me farther each day by living each moment with candor and believe in myself ,that I can sail it through and gain success in the thing that i love best,that is writing ….i love to share my piece of mind , my heart , my soul ,my emotions ,my fears and express myself freely through writing although am a newbie a fresher i really want to share with you a piece of what I am.