thoughts and prayer

Torn

Duality of thoughts

Beauty fades

in mental disarray

Thorns beneath her bed

Long sleepless nights

Eyes wide awake,

brain ran wild.

 

Loud

Echoes in her mind

in the stillness of the night,

blank pages inked with red

embossed in empty sheets

Bearing  beatings within veins

secrets contents from her heart.

 

Strenght

She found within

prayers drive from her frail soul

To stand against the raging storm

trying to assail her hope night and day

God her rock and strength.

Her guide and protection in times of trouble.

 

Faith

She carries within

Strident like an arrow

She tossed into the sky

Breaking the shield of darkness

In her life.

 

Prayers

an undying mantra

To rest her care to the Lord

Like a child in his arms

Where her joy and peace

Are truly found.

Oh men!

 

Boys and Men

 

Men are complex beings.

Sometimes like a child, they want to be pampered, eventually, at the same time, he wants to be the hero of your life.

Like a child and adult rolled into one.

Women love their men that way, that’s why she acted like his sister, his mother, his lover, partner and his friend and his cook.

Giving him the favor and great privileges.

If a woman lack one of these characteristics that are the basis of cultivating a great relationship. It’s a crucial step to capture his attention by keeping his stomach full by being his everything or nothing.

The woman’s main objective is being a good cook. If he is always full, it means he is always in good mood. He will not look anywhere to make his fill.

Lacking all of this attributes means we must be prepared for an accident landing in a ditch is not a pretty sight.

That’s why men came from Mars and women from Venus.

 

Love quirks

 

You rock my world.

You held my heart

Mangle it beyond recognition.

And return it without remorse.

 

I should have hated you for doing that

But I still love you even more.

ii

 

I’ve never known that love could be as bright as the sun  and there’s nothing as painful as hell when  returned    back to you,  purplish  black and blue. Too late to know as you held it between your hands that moment will dawned , that I can’t take it back. Pulverized it to dust and scatter wishes in the wind to heal the world from pain and miseries. To live in the light of love and harmony by living in his divine light to lead our way to the truth of our existence.Love hurts always. To feel its ferocity is a curse but,  exactly what the world needs to heal the broken , bruised and lost.

 

iii

Love hurts always. To feel its ferocity is a curse but,  exactly what the world needs to heal the broken, bruised and lost.

You came and I know that I can’t love anyone just the way how you made me  feel. The way how you complete the last piece of the puzzle that I am.

iv

 

We love, within great  fervor and ardor even they break your heart, love still lives and work magic. Don’t give up loving the unlovable they might be broken than they refuse to know but forget to acknowledge. So they are hiding behind a mask of pretension. Don’t give up they might need a change of heart too. get rid of the bad memories they’re still nursing from the past.

v

Where purest gold flows

That shimmer and glow.

Love grow where no hatred can flourish,

The beholder of happiness.

 

 

 

 

 

soul’s secret

the moment they met

The sun spins magic

He saw the moon in her eyes

And dream with her in paradise.

 

She smiled at him one day,

Catching a glance his way.

He’s stoned as steel,

Knees buckled, feet turn into a bubble.

 

Stoned whenever she’s near

The words hang in his throat

Unable to croak.

 

As years gone by

So is the color in their eyes,

He waited….

She waited….

Nothing’s done.

 

II

they met on a platform where the train is about to go.

Petrified as their souls crash in an opportune time.

Two souls collide and flew with wings to paradise,

Burning with fiery fire unleashed desires.

 

Two souls lost in the highway to hell.

They knew what it was to be haunted for life

For such a moment to waste without knowing each other.

 

There was a spark,

She hated chemistry

A lesson she have to endure.

 

IV

We touched

Senses undefined

Intangible yet tangible.

 

calling you, one somber night

Curling in bed wishing death

Trying to put my demons asleep.

 

You tiptoed in silence

a comforting presence

Though you’re not there.

 

surviving madness in pieces of my soul

surviving from every onslaught of struggles every day trying to survive from the painful path of transformation.  The pain and longings in the seat of the souls escalate every living second. Trying to find something that wasn’t there coveting even an ounce of happiness that was so distant. The heaven’s cried in defeat as it pours its raging emotion to the ground with vehemence. There’s a missing piece that needs to find in looking for a fix of finding oneself that was lost and scattered in pieces along this life’s journey. Trying to go back and retrieve the best part of me,  but was getting lost in the maze of crippling emotions and conflicting thoughts when the heart and mind don’t cooperate with each other making the confusion grow into monumental walls desperate to climb. Drowning from self-pity and defeat from the demons that taunt every decapacitating moment of weakness.  The longing in my soul to find that missing part of me, conspiring with the universe to search for it. Maybe, he is the answer to my existence as deep in my heart and soul there’s a longing to find him or my journey in this world will be futile.  There are millions of people in the world could I met them in this lifetime? Is it possible as I question my mind in this colossal doubt and struggle whether I can find him or not?    Holding the jade bracelet between my eyes admiring its beauty an intricate but delicate design molded to it in gold. It’s beautiful to look at and put it in the safest place inside a wooden chest.  Ok world, here I come!

As she set forth an unchartered journey into the unknown she was afraid that she needs to solve the puzzle surrounding the legend of the bracelet.  Every one of her crazy family after college was sent on an adventure to find every missing piece of the gem as an initiation to the greater challenge they have to face ahead of them. She wants to question the mystery of her existence but first, she has to find every missing stone that leads to the answer of her quest.  She wasn’t sure if she’s ready to set foot in this adventure fear and anticipation filled her lungs and endless questions inside her mind are streaming in. She was afraid that something might turn out not right that there’s a voice inside her head urging her to go on. Her grandpa told her to follow the stars , if she ever did she,   she will never get lost.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I was writing prose then come out to this it was unplanned and so out of place but sometimes it’s good to try, come up with something that comes up with a bit of inspiration.  I don’t know where it’s coming from. Life’s journey is filled with lessons, reason, and meaning that sums up to our journey on earth. I believe in my heart and soul that we are born with an innate light from within but we have to find it. After finding every piece of that treasure scattered around us is a chestful of wisdom, knowledge, and understanding, about life, love, and light. We are all an embodiment of greatness inside us if we set time to find it.To look for it in every heart of a person. There’s a truth that needs to be uncovered. inside us that we alone can understand…pieces of my soul

 

 

 

 

thank you, my dear friend

You came in the darkest hour

When days are darkened with despair.

When the call of the universe are answered

You are there.

When all the constellations collide.

At the right moment catching our eyes

You’re the first to answer that cry.

With your smile as I sat by my window and say, ” hi”.

Continents and distances do not matter

As we sat in front our computer at first,”hello”

my friend, you are heaven sent.

I thought you might have wings.

I thank the heavens above

As the lines are open between us

Talking early mornings and every afternoons

I poured out my  soul’s secrets to you

As our friendship deepened

You’re always there willing to listen

At my endless whinings

As you sat there unmasking yourself.

You are here in my heart forever,

And I realize we are looking for friendship

For a connection that you and I, understand.

As deep as the ocean below

As high as the heavens above

My dearest friend, thank you

For being there when I need you

Giving me strength when there was none.

Your energetic vibrations entwined with mine.

You give me a reason to believe in myself,

When I was inside that shelf bruised and broken from grief.

Thank you for being there.

Opening doors for me to believe in dreams,

even everything was darker at the seams.

To believe in the magic of the universe,

the passion for writing poetry.

Do you think I can forget you?

You’re etched in my heart in golden threads

As the tapestry of life makes your connection spreads

As soulmates meet and make our journeys complete,

As I pledge with the universe that you’re friendship will  be with me for always

Don’t you think I will forget you?

I  will always think highly of you.

You’re a man of dignity, integrity,

and discipline always keep your words

And keep your dealings clean.

I finally realize…

I finally realized we are mirroring each other’s eyes.

 

Thank you for being there,

As I offer my fervent prayer

May our loving God in heaven

Fill your days with love and happiness

Seasoned with successes in everything that you do.

Thank you for being my soulmate, and my friend.

 

I just wrote it for a friend of long ago. Who never left my mind since. All I want to say is, thank you.

endless self- talk

Raindrops fell, a shower of blessings from the sky as the clouds gave way its collection of tears letting go of every heavy weight, each numbing burden, and crippling pain. It pours in washing pent up emotions to cleanse the psyche selfish intentions. Drenching the bed where once dried grasses grow, in the colorful field of wildflowers. Soon lushfully everything grows where every creature roams and nest.

When heavy clouds disperse shows off golden rays of happiness the sun will shine brighter than it has been before, happiness smiling at every door.

 

Brave the odds silence every nagging fear. Get up and fight in righteous conduct. It’s not about luck it’s about persistence to endure with patience to rise up.  With the indomitable confidence to win the battles in life.

 

 

Discouragement will wear you out, overthinking will tear you down. Follow your heart it will lead you to the road of fulfillment by doing what you love. In time you’ll realize your dreams towards a life of abundance and wholeness will be rewarded. The road ahead is narrow and long, there are pitfalls and hurdles we met as we go on.  Stay on the right road, lead a righteous life. Soon life will reward you the dreams and visions you scattered in the universe. Ask for it, work for it and move ahead with courage and diligence. and a concrete determination to strive harder to meet that desired goals. Persevere with a diligent heart  with the determination to pursue your plans until all your efforts are rewarded soon life will crown you with success.

 

An assurance appeared when encouragement was needed.

A moment of endless questioning over my mediocre existence

War is raging inside a psyche between the good and evil, a battle at breakneck speed.

Enduring past troubles with acceptance keeping my eyes to heaven.

Trusting that this troubles will end.

Help appears out of nowhere goading me to hope and abide in God’s plan

Whatever happens is no coincidence , nothing happens by chance everything happens for a reason.

A balance needs to manifest by love and harmonious living by letting justice thrives.

That I’m part of a whole interwoven web of universal connection. That I matter.   I’m responsible for everything that will take place if I’m not careful.